Kenneth is 5’8. He weighs 190 pounds. He plays basketball, baseball and any other sports. He is a techie at heart. He grew up in the city and never been out of New York. He has one best friend and a lot of other close friends to help him get through the dark and hard days. Kenneth wanted to become a software engineer or do something in the computer field. However, he is a six year student at St.John’s University majoring in Pharmacy. Kenneth is a shy guy at first, but once you get to know him he can make you smile and laugh. He is always really caring and always is willing to listen to anything you have to say to him. Kenneth is defined by urban dictionary is “Kenneth is a chic magnet. He is the nicest straight guy you will ever meet. He is smart and sort of nerdy, but funny and cute at the same time. And of course, he has awesome hair. Although he can be a butt sometimes, he is still awesome.” However, this definition of my name is something I hope I can be and want to see myself as. I been satisfied with the things and people I had around me. It’s just that I haven’t been satisfied with myself.
Throughout my 18 years of life, I was struggling. I was struggling to find who I am and what I wanted from life. I was a very quiet person. I never really spoke my mind when hanging out with people. I would usually just agree to what the group I was with, and what they wanted to do. I would want to say I have broken out of that habit. Right now, I am not afraid to say, “Hey, I am going to go here actually, I will meet you later”. It makes me feel better about myself that I am doing that now. I feel like I get to what I need to do without having myself fear about what others would think. The most things I worry about are how I am viewed to people. I really care about what they think about me. The reason I do this is because I don’t want to have the feeling I had before where I felt like a complete loser like I did in middle school.
Most people would notice but never tell me that I have a speech problem. Whenever, I would talk and an “r”, “l” or an “s” would come up in a word, I have a hard time saying it or I would say it very with an odd accent. A lot of people would make fun of me for that and I feared talking because of that. I would hear students in the hallway trying to imitate me and it would hurt. I feel though, it has made me a better person and a stronger one in fact. It made me feel for people who are shy or has problems with themselves because like me, they might be actually really great people trying to be discovered by the people who actually care.
Currently my goal for this year is to do well in my studies, join a club that I have an interest in, not to lose myself and who I want to be. Also, I don’t want to gain the freshmen 15 and hopefully I can lose -15 pounds before the year ends. I also, I want to try to start a relationship with someone but that’s not too important now. Long-term wise, I want to get my degree as soon as I can and hopefully not want to kill myself during these 6 long years I have here at St.Johns. Hopefully, I am in the middle of a serious relationship with someone and I am still in touch with my friends from High school.
Kenneth Ngai
9:00am-10:30am
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